i`m walking, but to where?
taking the first step
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم (in the Name of Allāh, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful)
i`ve been thinking about writing again and i`ve been thinking about it a lot. i have a lot of thoughts floating inside my mind and think to myself that i should write them down but keep putting it off.
how am i living my life and where am i headed?
i`ve been thinking about my first post “back” on here and what it should be about. which of my thoughts can i turn into a longer text that i can then share online. which of my thoughts have the potential to resonate with lots of people. what should i write about that makes it easy for me to continue writing and not let it be yet another thing i started but never finished. the cycle continues and so i`m writing this as an attempt to break it.
i`ve been thinking a lot about my relationship with my phone. this object that was created by regular people is now basically glued to my hip. is it distracting me from prioritizing what`s important? is it increasing the distance between the person i am right now and the person i want to become? is it distracting me from my purpose in life, to worship Allāh? it is a scary thing.
where i am headed? is it a good place?
would my younger self be pleased with me? if she could see me now i think she would be proud to some extent, but more than anything i think she would be disappointed see that the enthusiasm and passion she had is now but shining weakly. that the person she grew up to become is not taking her interests, and herself, seriously.
i`m walking, but where am i headed?
Welcome back Leyla!! You write so well Masha'Allah!!
I totally feel you about feeling lost about where you're headed. I get easily distracted trying to piece together my future. I'm trying hard to have tawakkul though and focus on the present. Allah will iron out the details.
Feeel you on everythinggg Leyla. Glad to see a post from you, inshallah more to come! :)
What I really like about this is how it is filled with questions, yet u r "Taking the first step", which shows that we don't have to have all the answers before taking a step, we can take steps with questions still on our heads, as long as we ask and seek His guidance, so lets hold onto that!
May Allah make it easy for everyone, and may He rightly guide us.